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Lucrezia - A Kind of Magic by Heavensrun Lucrezia - A Kind of Magic :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 3 0 Furbidden Realms:  Easter Buns by Heavensrun
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Year of the Easter Rabbit by Heavensrun Year of the Easter Rabbit :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 1 0 Classic PRON by Heavensrun
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Classic PRON :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 2 2
THAT'S NO MOON... by Heavensrun THAT'S NO MOON... :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 4 4 Sniper Gynoid and Megid Queen by Heavensrun Sniper Gynoid and Megid Queen :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 6 2 Meru-sama has boobs by Heavensrun Meru-sama has boobs :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 0 0 Jo:Tablety Goodness:Fem Ver. by Heavensrun
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Jo:Tablety Goodness:Fem Ver. :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 3 0
Jo:Tablety Goodness:Male ver. by Heavensrun
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Kei:  With Yuri by Heavensrun Kei: With Yuri :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 27 10 Honjo Kamatari:  It's a trap by Heavensrun
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Honjo Kamatari: It's a trap :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 7 14
Gina Diggers: Coppertone by Heavensrun Gina Diggers: Coppertone :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 129 7 Isabella Keyes:  Pachamama by Heavensrun Isabella Keyes: Pachamama :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 59 23 Reiko Nagase:  Car Lover by Heavensrun Reiko Nagase: Car Lover :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 6 5 The Prince:  Bathtime by Heavensrun The Prince: Bathtime :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 8 6 Urd: Nyude by Heavensrun
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Urd: Nyude :iconheavensrun:Heavensrun 22 5

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GGaR in Dragon Age 2 by chlove-art GGaR in Dragon Age 2 :iconchlove-art:chlove-art 227 29 Gloves Revisited. by Khal941
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Poke-a-tyke by chlove-art Poke-a-tyke :iconchlove-art:chlove-art 465 27 The Don's Choices by Robaato The Don's Choices :iconrobaato:Robaato 7,489 610 Final Heaven by Robaato Final Heaven :iconrobaato:Robaato 3,536 199 Gina Gags X Penny Pranks 01 of 24 by FredGDPerry Gina Gags X Penny Pranks 01 of 24 :iconfredgdperry:FredGDPerry 357 55 Train Ride. by Khal941 Train Ride. :iconkhal941:Khal941 26 14 Nope. by Khal941
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Ask Pink and Red entry 5 by kamicheetah
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YOKO(?) from GURREN LAGANN by AdamWarren YOKO(?) from GURREN LAGANN :iconadamwarren:AdamWarren 964 53 Pin-Up Week: Dorothy by itswalky
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Pin-Up Week: Sarah and Joyce by itswalky Pin-Up Week: Sarah and Joyce :iconitswalky:itswalky 224 34 CC-RA's girls - Yuriko Omega by Ganassa
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Beyond Good and Evil - Jade by Ganassa Beyond Good and Evil - Jade :iconganassa:Ganassa 2,471 147 commission 10/2012 'Splash Down' by FredGDPerry
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Heavensrun
Jason Heavensrun
United States
Current Residence: Picture a realm beyond sight and sound...
Favourite genre of music: Orchestral/anything epic.
Favourite photographer: Frank West, Photojournalist. He's covered wars, y'know.
Favourite style of art: I'm partial to Tiger Style Shaolin, but Hung Gar's pretty powerful.
Operating System: Win 7
MP3 player of choice: Sony PSP. The only MP3 player with exclusive MGS action titles.
Shell of choice: Nautilus
Wallpaper of choice: I like the one with the birds on it. It goes with the rug in the entry. What do you think, honey?
Skin of choice: I think I'll stick with the one I've got, thanks.
Favourite cartoon character: Bill O'Reilly
Personal Quote: If the kettle is black, the pot's still right.
Interests
  • Listening to: Dara O'Briain standup
  • Reading: Maison Ikkoku Vol 15
  • Watching: X-Files Season six
  • Playing: Mass Effect
  • Eating: French Bread Pizza
  • Drinking: Pepsi, the choice of a new generation.
So it's been a good long while since I updated on FA or DA, and I honestly don't know if anybody here is even going to notice this journal, or remember who I am if they do.  But I know there are people out there that I have responsibilities to, commissions I owe, personal obligations left unfulfilled.  I owe explanations to some people, apologies to others, and to my friends I feel I should give a general update of my personal status.

The past few years have been...different, and the past year, specifically, has been exceedingly so.

When I was in high school, I talked to God a lot.  I wasn't exactly a fundamentalist, and he never talked back, but I was fairly confident in his existence.  I believed in a lot of things back then, actually.  In X-files terms, I was a "Mulder".  I even had a book concept for years wrapped around a suspense story involving crop circles, which I totally believed were real at the time.  I had faith in the mystery and wonder of the universe.  I got this sense of belief and wonder from my mom, who was never churchy, but was very worshipful of God's world.  She taught me to see how incredible and unlikely and special this world is, and to cherish life.  She also brought home french fries and soda from McDonald's anytime she left the house.  Words cannot express the awesome.

When I gave my first go at college, I went after a major in journalism, shifted to creative writing the next semester.  I was, as it happened, exceptionally -not- ready for university life, and went nowhere pretty fast.  I took several years off after that, and gradually worked on improving my ability to draw, learning to comic a bit, and planned on chasing after sequential art as an outlet for my storytelling drive.  I drew some short comics, wrote a bunch of scripts...stuff I still kinda want to get made someday.  I would go to cons and draw commissions for people.  I was pretty oddball, honestly; I don't think my father understood what I was all about in the slightest, and in most respects, I think he still doesn't.  But Mom was always in my corner, supportive and understanding, and absolutely certain that, given time and breathing space, I would find what makes me happy.  If not for her, honestly, Dad probably would have kicked me to the curb a long time ago, sink or swim style, and while I'm glad that never happened, I'm not entirely certain if I didn't need something like that.

Now, most unexpectedly, after years of drawing and writing, I find myself at the end of my second attempt at getting a college degree, this time with apparent success.  (Talk to me after finals to be sure.  ;p )  And of all things, I'm graduating with a degree in Engineering Physics, because when I came back to college, to pursue an art degree with the intent of becoming a professional comic creator, I happened to take an astronomy course that mindgasmed my whole worldview around.

Suddenly, the universe was less mysterious, but much, MUCH more amazing.  What used to seem like the unknowable depths of the cosmos not only had explanations, but quantifiable, verifiable explanations.  I could not only understand the way things worked, I could predict, and watch those predictions come to life in amazing, incredible ways.  I had spent the past several years gradually transitioning into "Scully" territory, to be sure, but now I was securely anchored in skepticsville, and I felt liberated by it.  There was a level of sense to the universe that I could never get from my religious beliefs, and it wasn't long before I found that those had been left entirely by the wayside.

The side effect there, however, is that it was much harder to spend dedicated time working on art worth selling to people when the pressures of chasing after a rather difficult degree program were demanding a -lot- of my time.  I've been struggling for the past few years to really squeeze in time to draw anything up to sale-worthy standards, and I have a hangup of personal pride that keeps me from drawing out commissions if they're not above a certain acceptable quality threshold.  I have scrapped a lot of rusty sketches trying to get through my commission backlog.  Still, I kept at it for a couple years, trying to keep up, trying to -catch- up,  with a blend of successes and failures.  It didn't help that I was having to work two jobs to help cover my college expenses, and my paralyzing addiction to any game pumped out by Bioware.

Then, three years ago, I started dating a certain young woman, and things changed again.  I had been considering transferring to a different school, going somewhere that better suited my fascination with astronomy, but this relationship was something that became a very serious part of my life.  I have never wanted to be the person that put career ahead of love or friendship, and this was, in no uncertain terms, the most I've ever loved somebody in my life.  So I stayed where I was, and she became my priority.  She was cute, funny, sassy in all the best ways, and she loved Doctor Who.  For about a year and a half, I was as happy as I've ever been.

At which point we lost Mom to cancer.

I wish I could impart some deep and complex thoughts about what it was like to go through that loss, or how I've coped with it for the past year, but really, all I can say is it hurt, I miss her, and I am so incredibly sorry that she couldn't live to see me graduate.  

Needless to say, I had a rather depressing summer.  And when it was over, after becoming keenly aware that our relationship was not developing in any mutually satisfactory way, the girl I'd fully intended to marry decided that she just didn't feel like she was a "relationship person".  So for the past year, I've been struggling to claw myself out of a deep, deep depression.  I've had moods swing with sufficient force to crack stone.  I even got within thinking distance of throwing myself off of the roof of a building, and the only thing that kept me in check was the knowledge of the pain that would cause to my friends and family.

And now, I've spent a year adjusting myself to the thought that Mom's never coming home with french fries and sprite again, and to the knowledge that Mel and I are never going to have that Doctor Who themed wedding.  It didn't help that my best friend moved to Colorado in the midst of all this, leaving me with...the internet.  And don't get me wrong, I -love- my friends on the net, but sometimes you need a shoulder to physically cry on, and fuck if I didn't have anything of the sort.  So it's been a tough year.  I feel like I've hardened a little inside.  Like I have defenses up I don't know if I can let down again.

But I'm healing, lest anyone mistake this for a emogothlivejournalmylifeispain sort of post.  I've had a year to adjust to new realities, and for the most part, I have.  I love and live off the support of my family and dear friends.  I know how -lucky- I actually am.  Dad's been really supportive over the past year, even as he's been dealing with his own loss.  My brother and sister and their families have been great, and my friends have all been invaluable.  And what suffering I have gone through is nothing compared to the loss and difficulty being suffered in other countries, ravaged by war and disaster.  I have had time to think about who I am, what I believe, and who and what I want to be, and I'm going to continue pushing forward.  I still tell stories, but now those stories are informed by a deeper understanding of how the universe functions, and sometimes, the stories may even be true ones.  I want to educate and entertain, and try to help make tomorrow a little better for everybody.

And so there I stand after three and a half decades of existence on this little ball of rock and water .  Mourning loss, celebrating life, enduring pain, loving friends, and eating fries.

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ninjakingofhearts Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Hello?
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pixelsaurus Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! :)
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JamesLeeStone Featured By Owner May 1, 2011
thanks for faving
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JamesLeeStone Featured By Owner May 17, 2011
Haha!
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Heavensrun Featured By Owner May 12, 2011
Thank -you- for posting awesomehawt Alan Davis art. ;p
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JamesLeeStone Featured By Owner May 12, 2011
Haha, I just try to work with the best art I can, and he's one of the best.
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Heavensrun Featured By Owner May 17, 2011
That he is...That he is. (nods) (does another sketch trying to emulate his style)
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shotgun007 Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2011
hi,i really like your calamity jane pic. i was hopeing you would do some more sometime,maybe some nudes?
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Heavensrun Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2011
More of CJ? Or more art in general? For the latter, I still draw as a hobby, and upload stuff now and then. If you mean more of Jane, Eh, I might? If I was going to draw more WA fanart, Cici or Emma are more my style.
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shotgun007 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2011
thanks for replying, i was meaning jane, if you got some spare time someday i would like to see more of her,nude would be cool.
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